nightmare city

i woke up with a start last night from an extremely vivid nightmare. i ended up laying in bed for about 15 minutes, exhausted, but forcing myself to be wide awake so i could shake the feelings the dream had jumbled up inside of me. I was so scared I didn't want to fall asleep and find that I was right back in the dream.

To summarize:
I dreamt that I was on the set of a Law and Order show, where the plot was supposed to be a talent show in which a member of the audience got killed. I was applying to work at the theater where the talent show was held, so I was extremely conscious of the people I would have to be around if I got the job. Once the talent show commenced, however, two people died in very gruesome bizarre ways: a girl doing trapeze fell to her death, a boy on roller skates fell over vomiting. Somehow I knew that my co-worker, an overly eager guy, was causing the deaths, and I spent the rest of the dream trying to figure out how to turn down the job and get out of the situation. When i finally found the person with whom I had been interviewing, he walked me to a back corner of central park. After I told him my news, he nodded, and then tried to kiss me. I jerked my head back and woke up, because that physical action in the dream had been mirrored in real life.

There were so many obvious parallels to my life in this dream. My fear of getting a job and moving on; my fear of never getting a job. Death, life, living in new york, not living in new york. god i wish i had a job.